When I Look In The Mirror is a reoccurring series on TGS.
When I look in the mirror, I see a woman who is still learning to love herself.
Sometimes she picks at her face because it’s not totally glowing and she’s not sure if it’s because her moisturizer is shit or if it’s because the fluorescent lights make her look dull. Sometimes she thinks her cheeks are too puffy or her eyes are too small or her hair is too greasy but then she makes herself step back and say IT’S OKAY very loudly in her head. Because IT’S OKAY if you don’t look amazing every single day. And IT’S OKAY if you wake up and while you were sleeping someone came in and put a pimple right next to your nose on a Friday. And IT’S OKAY if your favorite dress doesn’t fit as well as it used to because you aren’t 17 anymore and sometimes you would rather have a glass of red wine (or three) instead of going to a yoga class.
When I look in the mirror, I see a woman who has grown so much in the past five years. I see a woman who has gone from wearing a ton of makeup out of insecurity, to wearing zero makeup out of rebellion. I see a woman who has gone from hating makeup, to hating a bare face, to somewhat finding a happy medium depending on what day it is. I see a woman who has fluctuated through four different jean sizes in the past seven years and finally learned to be okay with it because it doesn’t matter if you fit into a certain pair of jeans, it matters if you’re happy. I see a woman who has attempted a few different diets but disregarded them all because she realized she never wanted to restrict herself in a life that she would rather be enjoying full force. I see a woman who is working every day to learn the true meaning of balance in the physical aspect of her life.
The woman in the mirror debates with me every single day. Most days I win, but sometimes I don’t. And that is OKAY. If I won every single day that would mean I’m a superhero and so far, I can’t fly (yet) so that is still waiting to be determined.