When writing people always say, the simplest thing is to write what you know. Alright, fair enough. But what if you know too much? Not in a “I’m a genius, duh” kind of way, but rather in a “I’m a sensitive person who feels all the feels” kind of way. I personally fall into the second group. SPOILER ALERT! I’ve spent the last few years recovering from an eating disorder. Physical rebuilding aside (which please don’t think was a cake walk especially because there was a time when I was afraid of cake), a big part of my recovery has been rediscovering myself. Allowing myself to embrace the new, the confusing, the unsettling, the interesting and the curious. Defying the black and white, and instead embracing the gray.
There are the things you know you don’t know, like brain surgery (although shout out to anyone who actually does) and then are the things you don’t know you don’t know. Currently, I’m living for the latter. I’m living for the things that excite me, surprise me, scare me, shake me, overwhelm me, tickle me, whatever. I’m living for the things that I whole heartedly feel. The things that I didn’t know I didn’t know until they ended up in front of me. I’m living for the gray.
Whether you are on your own journey of self discovery (honestly who isn’t) or just perusing the interwebs and looking for something to read, I invite you to lean into the feels with me. Lean in to the messiness that is life. Who knows, you just might surprise yourself with what you discover. I am Serita, these are my words, and I hope you find something in them. Peace out girl (or boy) scout!