We are officially in Autumn territory even if it might not feel like it in California. The nights are getting shorter, the sun is rising later and the weather is getting (slightly) chillier. We just had a full moon last week so I hope you were able to take an evening for yourself to reflect, set an intention and put any crystals you may have outside for a cleanse.
The past few weeks (months even) have been extremely trying. It feels like every week we are dealing with a new natural disaster or horrific event on the news and the weight of it all can feel unbearable. I’ve found that for me personally, the best way to digest everything is in doses. I catch up on the news, do my research on ways I can help, and then I take a little bit to check in on myself and see how I’m feeling. I know this in itself is a privilege, the ability to step back from these things and take a beat, and it is not something I take for granted even for a second. I’m going to put a few links at the bottom of this post of charities and resources I’ve been using to try and help in any way I can.
By the time this post goes live I will be in New York. It is my first and only “vacation” of the year and I’ve been looking forward to it for months. Expect a giant Glossier haul and photos of every flower I can get my camera in front of.
I want to talk about the fear of failing because it’s something that has come up in my life again recently. I absolutely loathe doing things I am not good at – soccer, drawing and public speaking all fall into this category. I’ve recently stepped into a new set of responsibilities and the fear of failing rose up through my throat so quickly I thought I was choking. I hate not knowing how to do something and even worse, I hate being thrown into the flames with minimal training. I’m sure if you’re reading this you have felt like this at one time or another, it’s fairly common. Humans generally don’t enjoy failing at things. My biggest challenge within this new set of responsibilities is going to be relinquishing some of that fear and learning to live in the murky waters of doubt. I’m going to have to learn to be okay with asking for help (something I am notoriously bad at). I’m going to have to learn to be okay with learning as I go. I’m going to have to learn to be okay with flailing a little bit.
Doing new things is exhilarating and terrifying but a vital part of growing up and becoming better as an overall human being. I hope your October is off to a great start, be nice to yourself and take care of the people you love.