Dear J is a reoccurring series in the TGS Sunday Letters. Each Dear J letter is written anonymously by one of our writers. These letters are the things we didn’t say, the things we wish we did and the things that we never will.
I love you.
I remember that first day I began loving you so clearly. You were helping a beggar in the streets and I had quickly walked by ignoring the man assuming it was a scam. I remember turning around in the street and seeing you from afar. You had stopped in the pouring rain and were digging into your pockets finding all your spare change while patiently listening to this stranger’s desperate ramblings. It may seem like a small act but not to me. I saw then what makes you, you. There is so much goodness in your soul and my heart could not resist having you.
I can still remember that moment, a new feeling that enveloped my heart. A feeling I thought I had experienced before but was so wrong. I was a guarded teenager never open to love or deep relationships. I wanted to live my life for myself and be successful and independent all by myself. And yet, I found you and you took me completely off guard. You loved me before I even loved myself. You were like magic.
Since that day, we’ve come a long way. We’ve had so many things against us but we tore down those obstacles. We’ve had our share of difficult times but together we have discovered so many new places, emotions, and dreams.
I love the way you comfort me. When I don’t feel like talking you just lie there holding me on the couch.
I love that you sing in the shower or can harmonize with any song that plays on the radio.
I love it when you hold my hand even if we’re only walking around the supermarket.
I love your handsome smile and how it makes your eyes crinkle.
I love the way you look at me in the early mornings even though I look like a tired mess.
I love that you see past my flaws and easily forgive my stubbornness and temper.
I love your commitment to your profession and proud of the amazing successes you’ve so far earned.
I love that you bring laughter and light when I’m sinking in sadness and darkness.
I love your devotion to your family and friends and how you’d do everything to help them.
I love that you always seem composed and have the right answers to everything. No one can have everything figured out but you’d give anyone a run for their money.
I don’t know what our future holds or where we’ll go next but you sure have a way of making it look so easy, bright and exciting. Yes, I can sometimes be that guarded and protective teenager. But now I’ve grown from wanting to live my own individual life to wanting us to build a life together, succeed, and discover the world together.
I feel so lucky that I get to have a man like you as my partner. So this is a letter to say thank you for blessing me with your sweet love and making my heart sing ever since that fateful day.